Spiritual Battle
I had a horrendous dream this morning that I had to struggle to wake up from.
I dreamt it was yesterday and it was Sha's wedding and the day started off happy because I had started bleeding and I thought to myself, "I'm pregnant!". Ms Chan and Toad were there too with Dan and I. And then as it progressed, it became a beach side thing with lots of people I didn't know. But there was talk that someone had died. And slowly, people kept disappearing except this one woman. I discovered that she had some strange power because I saw her kill someone in front of me and then revive someone who looked and acted like the person she killed. And everyone lived on this beach.
Thing is there were people who tried to escape and she killed them and they just disappeared into the sand. I realised I was trapped. But I wanted to go back, to Dan and everyone else. And I went to ask her, to let me leave, to go back to my own world. And she said, this was my world and no one could go back. She didn't see why anyone wanted to go back anyway since it was a perfect world. I replied it wasn't perfect if she was forcibly keeping people there and I was pregnant and wanted to be with Dan.
She laughed this hideous laugh and pointed at me and I fell to the ground and said there was no pregnancy and there was nothing to be pregnant with because she had made certain of that. And if I tried to leave, she'd try to kill me. At that point, while I was on the ground, looking up at her, I realised that she was the devil. And this was hell. And I wanted to leave, because it was not where I belonged. I knew that I was going to die trying, but I had to.
At that point, there was God. It was like he was there all the time. He didn't sound far away. Anyway, I told Him that I needed to do this and the only way I was going to do this was to do it with Him, above me. It was almost as if He was holding my hand. He told me to just protect myself by singing whatever hymns I could remember. And we started running. I knew the devil was chasing and I felt that my back was very vulnerable. But I kept singing the doxology and Amazing Grace and any other verses that I could remember.
I felt that I was running and I was fearful that I would be killed, but nothing seemed to hit me as long as I was singing. And I felt that the devil took a great leap and tried to enter me. It was at that moment that I felt awake enough to realise that I was being pinned down in bed and I struggled and I was whispering under my breath the same songs as in the dream and slowly I came through.
All I've wanted is to be pregnant. I never imagined to be grounds for a spiritual war. And this is my declaration and by Jesus name, I stand by it. Mine belongs to God and there is no room for any other. The devil has no place within me because God is all powerful and the only one I've let in. I am protected by the Holy Spirit and God's grace and BE GONE, SATAN. You do not belong here. You have NO PLACE here.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit- the Perfect Trinity.
Amen.
I dreamt it was yesterday and it was Sha's wedding and the day started off happy because I had started bleeding and I thought to myself, "I'm pregnant!". Ms Chan and Toad were there too with Dan and I. And then as it progressed, it became a beach side thing with lots of people I didn't know. But there was talk that someone had died. And slowly, people kept disappearing except this one woman. I discovered that she had some strange power because I saw her kill someone in front of me and then revive someone who looked and acted like the person she killed. And everyone lived on this beach.
Thing is there were people who tried to escape and she killed them and they just disappeared into the sand. I realised I was trapped. But I wanted to go back, to Dan and everyone else. And I went to ask her, to let me leave, to go back to my own world. And she said, this was my world and no one could go back. She didn't see why anyone wanted to go back anyway since it was a perfect world. I replied it wasn't perfect if she was forcibly keeping people there and I was pregnant and wanted to be with Dan.
She laughed this hideous laugh and pointed at me and I fell to the ground and said there was no pregnancy and there was nothing to be pregnant with because she had made certain of that. And if I tried to leave, she'd try to kill me. At that point, while I was on the ground, looking up at her, I realised that she was the devil. And this was hell. And I wanted to leave, because it was not where I belonged. I knew that I was going to die trying, but I had to.
At that point, there was God. It was like he was there all the time. He didn't sound far away. Anyway, I told Him that I needed to do this and the only way I was going to do this was to do it with Him, above me. It was almost as if He was holding my hand. He told me to just protect myself by singing whatever hymns I could remember. And we started running. I knew the devil was chasing and I felt that my back was very vulnerable. But I kept singing the doxology and Amazing Grace and any other verses that I could remember.
I felt that I was running and I was fearful that I would be killed, but nothing seemed to hit me as long as I was singing. And I felt that the devil took a great leap and tried to enter me. It was at that moment that I felt awake enough to realise that I was being pinned down in bed and I struggled and I was whispering under my breath the same songs as in the dream and slowly I came through.
All I've wanted is to be pregnant. I never imagined to be grounds for a spiritual war. And this is my declaration and by Jesus name, I stand by it. Mine belongs to God and there is no room for any other. The devil has no place within me because God is all powerful and the only one I've let in. I am protected by the Holy Spirit and God's grace and BE GONE, SATAN. You do not belong here. You have NO PLACE here.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit- the Perfect Trinity.
Amen.
